I'm still here!

Yea I am! I am still here and am learning more and more everyday. I'm learning to balance my meals and still be satisfied. It has actually become more enjoyable because I am learning to alter my eating habits in a way that I can handle every single day. Normally, I would just base my meals on an extremely strict diet. Not any more!

Last day of the week

Saturday is upon us. I lost two pounds. I can't complain about that. I enjoyed this week. I was definately tested several times, but I did exactly what I planned to do. I did allow myself to eat, but I portioned the food.

Day by day

So the end of the week is upon us and I do have to say I did well. I'm not attaching my self to any diet or any fitness video program. The only thing that I am focusing on is making more reasonable choices throughout the day, not feeling guilty for "enjoying," and taking it day by day. As far as exercising, the only thing that I am doing is my "couch to 5k" plan. We have our Hilo Marathon coming up soon, so we will be participating in the 5k portion of it. I would lime to be able to easily jog through the whe race. So far so good. The first day was pretty tough. My muscles ached, my shins burned, and my inner thighs felt like I was ripping off my skin. I did not give up though. I went right back out the next day and the pain wasn't as bad. By today, I was gliding through this weeks plan. I'm satisfied with my progress this week.

A Quick Check-in

Today went over with no problems. It felt like everything was falling into place little by little. I am doing a couch to 5k program to get myself up to par with my running. Yesterday was tough! My shin's hurt while jogging (even though it was 60 second intervals) and my endurance levels sucked. To be expected though! I did survive and I can be extremely happy with that! Today I continued with my program and instead of running through my neighborhood, like I did yesterday, I used my treadmill. I was anticipating rain! I faired a lot better on the treadmill and enjoyed it a lot. I actually got in an extra five minutes.

Until tomorrow...

A Get Away

I have been aching to get away from everyone and everything lately. I have been stressing myself out with all that is going on in my life. Too much at one time.

A moment ago, I realized something I really enjoyed doing. I loved going for a run and take that half hour, or even an hour, really provided me with enough time to escape and decompress. To really release the tension and fustration that I am constantly surrounded by.

Today, I'm going to return to my recently lost hobby and just let everything go!

Motivation

At this hour, there is no motivation for the upcoming task of becoming a healthier individual. I'm just going to do it because it always feels amazing to finish working out. Day one here I come. Whether I am ready or not.

Monday is a coming

So Monday is my official start of eating more healthier more often. I refuse to deny myself of the amazing foods that I am constantly surrounded by, but I am going to portion myself. Portion instead of induldge. If I can keep that in mind, I know I can make it, I know I will survive, and I know I will be a healthier individual.

The Plan

So obviously I need to come up with a plan that will not only allow me to lose weight, but will also allow me to enjoy my lifestyle. My previous attempts have been successful, in that I reached my goal, but once that happens, I fall off the wagon and gain the majority of the weight back. It's difficult to navigate through a fusion of cultures here in Hawaii and deny myself the ability to enjoy the various foods that often find their way to my table. What to do? Honestly, I'm not sure!

What I do know is what has not worked. I have been able to stay on a consistent diet for several months, but it has not lasted. So that does not work! I have tried enjoy weekends and that doesn't work either. The weekends are to long of a span and I usually struggle to get back to exercising and eating right.

I think I am going to do a combination of the two. Not sure though! Any suggestions?

A Solution?

Life. One word with so much baggage attached to it. It can lift you up or slap you in your face. What I have learned is that you may not be able to predict what life has for you, but you can prepare yourself for whatever life may give you.

So 2009 was a year of many ups and downs. I lost 30 pounds of weight and gained 20 pounds back. Do I care? Of course I do! But I have accepted it as a part of the learning processes. I have accepted that I have a lot more to learn and a lot more to discover in life.

So where does that leave me? To be honest, I have no idea! But that's ok! I'm still learning. I'm still growing!

Getting Back in the Game

Today brings forth a lot of challenges, yet a lot of hope for the future. The scars of the past year still remain, but there will always be tomorrow to look forward to.

It has been six + months since I last posted a blog and so much has happened since. I look forward to sharing those moments with you as I journey forward in search of balance, self awareness, and above all - happiness.