As we laid our grandmother to rest today, the vog lifted and the skies cleared. My grandmother was finally resting in peace and now she can join her husband forever. As unexpected and as sad as her passing has been, I am constantly reminded of that dream I had the night before she went into the hospital. I do believe it was my grandfather that wanted to send a message letting me know that she is going to be alright.
Funerals here in Hawaii, often bring forth a wealth of donuts, pastries, and an endless amount of food to be eaten. I stayed away from the donuts and pastries. That really wasn't a challenge. I don't crave those types of things anymore. Luckily, our parents opted for the restaurant route instead of a gathering at the home with a huge pot luck going on. I was happy to have found an Grilled Citrus Ahi in Miso Vinaigrette on the menu and jumped at it immediately. It was delicious and as I sat down with my grandmother and aunt, I learned a lot from them and enjoyed our conversation.
After we dropped my grandmother and aunt off at the airport and said our "goodbyes," we ventured back to the gravesite and said our final goodbye to our grandmother.
Thursday, April 30, 2009
Wednesday, April 29, 2009
Health & Fitness - Rest
Sometimes, we have days when we just seem to breeze through the daylight hours enjoying the moments that pass. Other days, every second that ticks past the clock seems likes a year of agony. Today, was a combination of both. The time flew by, but every moment that passed seemed like a beating of disappointment and failure.
I opted to use today as my rest day so I could focus on finishing the collage with my mother. After last nights painful discovery of not having any ink in my printer, I opted to use my mother's printer for the time being. The picture quality of her laser color printer was terrible. No matter what type of paper used, it seemed artificial and amateurish. The, her wonderful printer greeted us with a familiar ring. BEEP! Out of ink! More disappointment and failure.
My father rushed off to pick up my other Grandmother and Aunt and stopped by the store to pick up some ink for both printers and my mother and I hurriedly rushed to cut out pictures and double stick tapped them to the board. I couldn't even be there to finish it because I needed to pick up my nephew and drive to pick up our "respite" youth. Needless to say, I drove down to pick up our "respite" youth for no reason. They had been picked up already and no one was generous enough to call me and let me know. Wasted 30 minutes for nothing.
Luckily, I made it a few minutes after the viewing at my grandmother's funeral, shook hands, exchanged hugs with my Uncles, Aunts and cousin (Captain Sherry Thompson) and shyed back into the 2nd row.
Our collage was a miniscule success, but that was not what mattered. We were there to pay respects to a beautiful woman that taught us so many things, guided us through childhood, and supported our decisions in life.
By the close of the funeral parlor, the collage had begun to fall apart, but it was ok. We poured our hearts into it and although we wish we had more available time to polish it, my grandmother knew we put as much thought and care into it.
I opted to use today as my rest day so I could focus on finishing the collage with my mother. After last nights painful discovery of not having any ink in my printer, I opted to use my mother's printer for the time being. The picture quality of her laser color printer was terrible. No matter what type of paper used, it seemed artificial and amateurish. The, her wonderful printer greeted us with a familiar ring. BEEP! Out of ink! More disappointment and failure.
My father rushed off to pick up my other Grandmother and Aunt and stopped by the store to pick up some ink for both printers and my mother and I hurriedly rushed to cut out pictures and double stick tapped them to the board. I couldn't even be there to finish it because I needed to pick up my nephew and drive to pick up our "respite" youth. Needless to say, I drove down to pick up our "respite" youth for no reason. They had been picked up already and no one was generous enough to call me and let me know. Wasted 30 minutes for nothing.
Luckily, I made it a few minutes after the viewing at my grandmother's funeral, shook hands, exchanged hugs with my Uncles, Aunts and cousin (Captain Sherry Thompson) and shyed back into the 2nd row.
Our collage was a miniscule success, but that was not what mattered. We were there to pay respects to a beautiful woman that taught us so many things, guided us through childhood, and supported our decisions in life.
By the close of the funeral parlor, the collage had begun to fall apart, but it was ok. We poured our hearts into it and although we wish we had more available time to polish it, my grandmother knew we put as much thought and care into it.
Tuesday, April 28, 2009
Health & Fitness - Pressure Build, Time to Quit?
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So, at this very moment, I can feel my blood boiling like an overheated pot of water. Today was not a very friendly day for myself. Yesterday, my parents got a call (I won't go into details) that meant my parents would have to house a few people, possibly for the next 90 days. So my mother asked me to assist her and get things organized and ready. Not a problem, but I already was a week backed up on everything else I had to do. So, I offered to take my father to his doctor's appointment and sat back and listened to his fustration with everything as of late and could only hear my thoughts ramble about on how I really didn't want to be driving him around and needed to do a list of other things.
Don't get me wrong! I absolutely love my father! The situation compiled with the seemingly never ending task list just did not put me in a mood to listening to someone else talk about their "problems."
So, after my father's appointment was finished, we went up to my grandmother's house and I cleaned up a little to get the house ready for the gathering after the funeral and burrial.
We then rushed back to my home to pick up my nephew, I had him do his chores and we headed back to my father's home. Unfortunately, my mother had not left a list of things to do and everything was a mess. So I just cleaned up where ever I felt needed straigtening up.
I needed to move my car out of the garage so my mother could park there and rolled my car back. As my car rolled back, it began to speed up. I pumped the break and nothing happened. I tried again. Nothing! I yanked the wheel. Nothing! I started to freak out. Before I could comprehend what was going on, BOOM. I crashed into my father's parked "project car."
The overwhelming rush of emotions that flooded my body was simply unexplainable. I wanted to throw my hands up and quit! Quit everything and run away!
Not only did I have a week's worth of catching up to do, a collage to produce in 24 hours, but I just added a major financial burden upon myself. I think I was soo overwhelmed with emotions that I had no emotions left. I had morphed into a stone.
I then just decided to go home. Go home and try to figure out a way to decompress before I lost it. Luckily it was Tuesday and I could redirect all my bent up anger and fustration on the silliness of American Idol. Everyone did superbly well, except Matt and boy did get it from me.
After a few glasses of wine and a comical performance from Matt, I was feeling a bit more at ease. I ventured into my office and decided to print out pictures. The fist picture started and the printer pulled the paper from the tray. BEEP! Out of Ink!
So, at this very moment, I can feel my blood boiling like an overheated pot of water. Today was not a very friendly day for myself. Yesterday, my parents got a call (I won't go into details) that meant my parents would have to house a few people, possibly for the next 90 days. So my mother asked me to assist her and get things organized and ready. Not a problem, but I already was a week backed up on everything else I had to do. So, I offered to take my father to his doctor's appointment and sat back and listened to his fustration with everything as of late and could only hear my thoughts ramble about on how I really didn't want to be driving him around and needed to do a list of other things.
Don't get me wrong! I absolutely love my father! The situation compiled with the seemingly never ending task list just did not put me in a mood to listening to someone else talk about their "problems."
So, after my father's appointment was finished, we went up to my grandmother's house and I cleaned up a little to get the house ready for the gathering after the funeral and burrial.
We then rushed back to my home to pick up my nephew, I had him do his chores and we headed back to my father's home. Unfortunately, my mother had not left a list of things to do and everything was a mess. So I just cleaned up where ever I felt needed straigtening up.
I needed to move my car out of the garage so my mother could park there and rolled my car back. As my car rolled back, it began to speed up. I pumped the break and nothing happened. I tried again. Nothing! I yanked the wheel. Nothing! I started to freak out. Before I could comprehend what was going on, BOOM. I crashed into my father's parked "project car."
The overwhelming rush of emotions that flooded my body was simply unexplainable. I wanted to throw my hands up and quit! Quit everything and run away!
Not only did I have a week's worth of catching up to do, a collage to produce in 24 hours, but I just added a major financial burden upon myself. I think I was soo overwhelmed with emotions that I had no emotions left. I had morphed into a stone.
I then just decided to go home. Go home and try to figure out a way to decompress before I lost it. Luckily it was Tuesday and I could redirect all my bent up anger and fustration on the silliness of American Idol. Everyone did superbly well, except Matt and boy did get it from me.
After a few glasses of wine and a comical performance from Matt, I was feeling a bit more at ease. I ventured into my office and decided to print out pictures. The fist picture started and the printer pulled the paper from the tray. BEEP! Out of Ink!
Monday, April 27, 2009
Health & Fitness - Choices
Pressure can be extremely complicated and often overwhelming. The stress that life brings can drive someone insane. I can see how a sane person can lose their grip and do something that another would think of as unimaginable. I'm not saying that it is excusable for someone to do things that could harm themselves or others, I'm just saying I can see the path that they would have taken to get to that point. Some people deal with far worse situations that I could ever dream of. That is why we all need to take care of ourselves. We cannot neglect our mental, physical, and health needs. If we do, we are going to end up doing something that we will never be able to undo and live a life in a concrete suite at the silver palace.
I have been blessed with many experiences, both good and bad. I have learned through the many mistakes that I have stumbled upon and I have grown stronger by the good choices that I have made throughout my life. If you need some help, some guidance, some advice, seek help from a friend, family member, or even through professional help. There is always someone out there with an open ear that is willing to sit down and hear what you have to say. As complicated as the world may seem, many of us share the same experiences, challenges, tragedies, hardships, accomplishments, goals, and more.
I am grateful that I found solace in the love and support of my loved ones, they have given me the guidance and assistance that I have needed throughout my many trials and tribulations, but they have always been their to lift me up when I succeed.
I have been blessed with many experiences, both good and bad. I have learned through the many mistakes that I have stumbled upon and I have grown stronger by the good choices that I have made throughout my life. If you need some help, some guidance, some advice, seek help from a friend, family member, or even through professional help. There is always someone out there with an open ear that is willing to sit down and hear what you have to say. As complicated as the world may seem, many of us share the same experiences, challenges, tragedies, hardships, accomplishments, goals, and more.
I am grateful that I found solace in the love and support of my loved ones, they have given me the guidance and assistance that I have needed throughout my many trials and tribulations, but they have always been their to lift me up when I succeed.
Sunday, April 26, 2009
Health & Fitness - Coming Home
Exhaustion is the word of the day. Wait! The week! It has been crazy and all I can think about is everything else I need to do when I get home. So much to do and so little time to do it. Grandma's funeral is on Wednesday, I have to pick up Clarence, finalize my 4 assignments and exam by tomorrow, and get caught up with all of my work.
I'm constantly weighing in on what I need to put on the side and health & fitness always comes up. It is so easy to just push it aside and use that extra time to get caught up. I already have those damn excuses building in my head, "It's only for now," "I'll get back on it," "I have to sacrifice something."
At the same time, I'm replaying the excuses of past and it seems like a broken record every time I tried to get healthy and fit. Something that I perceive as more important comes up (getting sick, personal matters, etc.) and I immediately revert back to the same excuses that I had used before. Amazingly, I believed every single excuse each time they came up. I believed that it was only a temporary situation and that I was going to get back on it. I actually believed that I would be able to just jump right back on it like nothing had ever happened.
This time around, although I am facing the same challenges, I have come to this with a better understand of not only the key elements of living a healthier and fit life, but also the gift of self-evaluation. I have been able to look back at my past and pin point my patterns, habits, weaknesses and honestly analyze how they affected my outcome and how I can adjust my current choices to ensure I become successful.
With that being said, I am not a robot or I have not found the pot of gold in health and fitness. I still face these every day challenges. Making positive choices and taking it a step at a time.
If I could ever offer a piece of advice when it comes to living a healthier and fit life, that would be to find a support group that understands what you are going through. Use them as your sounding board. Bitch, moan, grown, and tell them how you feel because they will understand and they will help you get through any challenge you may face.
If you are in need of a support group. I know of a free and wonderful group that I live by. Health & Fitness Support
I'm constantly weighing in on what I need to put on the side and health & fitness always comes up. It is so easy to just push it aside and use that extra time to get caught up. I already have those damn excuses building in my head, "It's only for now," "I'll get back on it," "I have to sacrifice something."
At the same time, I'm replaying the excuses of past and it seems like a broken record every time I tried to get healthy and fit. Something that I perceive as more important comes up (getting sick, personal matters, etc.) and I immediately revert back to the same excuses that I had used before. Amazingly, I believed every single excuse each time they came up. I believed that it was only a temporary situation and that I was going to get back on it. I actually believed that I would be able to just jump right back on it like nothing had ever happened.
This time around, although I am facing the same challenges, I have come to this with a better understand of not only the key elements of living a healthier and fit life, but also the gift of self-evaluation. I have been able to look back at my past and pin point my patterns, habits, weaknesses and honestly analyze how they affected my outcome and how I can adjust my current choices to ensure I become successful.
With that being said, I am not a robot or I have not found the pot of gold in health and fitness. I still face these every day challenges. Making positive choices and taking it a step at a time.
If I could ever offer a piece of advice when it comes to living a healthier and fit life, that would be to find a support group that understands what you are going through. Use them as your sounding board. Bitch, moan, grown, and tell them how you feel because they will understand and they will help you get through any challenge you may face.
If you are in need of a support group. I know of a free and wonderful group that I live by. Health & Fitness Support
Saturday, April 25, 2009
Health & Fitness - Still Pushing Forward
When it comes to exercising, it can be such a challenge. Sometimes when I get started, all I can really think about is quiting and walking away. Every day is a different experience. Some days I am jolted with a boost of energy that fills my body from head to toe as I begin my Power 90, other days may take a while to feel up to the challenge. When I don't feel up to the challenge, I really don't feel energized until the whole process has been completed. Then that rush of accomplishment and motivation floods my body. I often have to remind myself of these feelings before I get started, or I would just shut down and choose to not workout.
Today was quite busy. We picked up my father in the morning and headed back to the hotel so he could rest. My Aunt and family wanted to stop by to visit. So as they made their way over, I opted to hit the road and exercise. When I got back, they were finding parking amongst the hectic streets of Waikiki, which gave me a few minutes to wash up and cool down.
It is so night to see them. It has been years since the last time I had seen them. My Aunty Dee Dee, Cousin Doris, Doris' Husband Donte, and their son came to visit my father.
My Aunt looked so good. Her cancer is in remission and it is so wonderful to she her spirits so high and see her still pushing forward. If that isn't motivation, I don't know what is.
Today was quite busy. We picked up my father in the morning and headed back to the hotel so he could rest. My Aunt and family wanted to stop by to visit. So as they made their way over, I opted to hit the road and exercise. When I got back, they were finding parking amongst the hectic streets of Waikiki, which gave me a few minutes to wash up and cool down.
It is so night to see them. It has been years since the last time I had seen them. My Aunty Dee Dee, Cousin Doris, Doris' Husband Donte, and their son came to visit my father.
My Aunt looked so good. Her cancer is in remission and it is so wonderful to she her spirits so high and see her still pushing forward. If that isn't motivation, I don't know what is.
Friday, April 24, 2009
Health & Fitness - Waiting
So, the hotel we are staying at is under construction, so we can hear the faint sounds of banging and crashing every morning. The rooms are absolutely gorgeous, but I couldn't get a restful night's sleep.
Today, my father is supposed to get discharged from the hospital, but the doctor decided to keep him in until the morning. The doctor wanted to be sure that everything is ok before he sends my father home.
The doctor came in at about 9 pm, just as visiting hours were over, so we spent our entire day waiting. At one point, I fell asleep on the chair in the hospital. I was tired. Luckily, I got my workout in early in the morning and all was set for the day. Gotta love it!
But until tomorrow, my father needs to wait to be sure all is good.
Today, my father is supposed to get discharged from the hospital, but the doctor decided to keep him in until the morning. The doctor wanted to be sure that everything is ok before he sends my father home.
The doctor came in at about 9 pm, just as visiting hours were over, so we spent our entire day waiting. At one point, I fell asleep on the chair in the hospital. I was tired. Luckily, I got my workout in early in the morning and all was set for the day. Gotta love it!
But until tomorrow, my father needs to wait to be sure all is good.
Thursday, April 23, 2009
Health & Fitness
So, my father went into surgery today in the afternoon. This gave me some time to remove myself and occupy my mind with something else rather than the many thoughts as of late. So I used some bands than we had purchased last night so I could do my Sculpt 3-4. It takes some adjusting and time to get used to the bands, but they actually do provide for a good workout. I was pleasantly surprised.
After I had completed my workout, I went for a 30 minute jog. Man, I am surprising myself everday. I actually jogged non-stop for 25 minutes, then sprinted the last 5. What is going on?
Meals came fairly easy. I had an expensive meal at the hospital's cafeteria that cost me $14.00 and some odd cents. Wasn't worth it when I'm a fan of McDonald's $1.00 side salad. That's pretty hard to beat.
So after my father's surgery, we returned and he looked really good. He was on pain medication, but he looked really upbeat and comfortable. I was so happy to see him!
After I had completed my workout, I went for a 30 minute jog. Man, I am surprising myself everday. I actually jogged non-stop for 25 minutes, then sprinted the last 5. What is going on?
Meals came fairly easy. I had an expensive meal at the hospital's cafeteria that cost me $14.00 and some odd cents. Wasn't worth it when I'm a fan of McDonald's $1.00 side salad. That's pretty hard to beat.
So after my father's surgery, we returned and he looked really good. He was on pain medication, but he looked really upbeat and comfortable. I was so happy to see him!
Wednesday, April 22, 2009
Health & Fitness - Guess Where I Went!
Ok people. I so want to talk about where I went today, but I can't. I decided, as I was there, to do a vlog on this experience because it was so significant. I don't want to reveal too much, but I do want to say that I validated a lot of my personal (I repeat, "personal") feelings about these types of places.
I'll give you three clues and I'm not going to talk about it until I post my vlog and my blog about today's experience.
1. People fill these places.
2. Money often gets waisted here.
3. There is a "g" some where in the name of these places.
I think you'll be able to figure it out! If not, await my future vlog and blog about these places. Sorry for the lack of information today. But, I really really really want to save this for a future vlog and blog. Until then, guess where I went!
I'll give you three clues and I'm not going to talk about it until I post my vlog and my blog about today's experience.
1. People fill these places.
2. Money often gets waisted here.
3. There is a "g" some where in the name of these places.
I think you'll be able to figure it out! If not, await my future vlog and blog about these places. Sorry for the lack of information today. But, I really really really want to save this for a future vlog and blog. Until then, guess where I went!
Tuesday, April 21, 2009
Health & Fitness - A Nice Surprise
Today was a wonderful day to workout. I decided that I needed to take some time to do some work before I worked out. It allowed me to wake up and focus a little more. When I began my Power 90 Sweat 3-4, I brought it like I have never brought it before. I was so impressed with my endurance level. I lasted throughout the whole routine, did Ab Ripper 200, and did a brisk walk/job on my treadmill. What the heck!
Upon that, I took my 60 day photos and after comparing my Day 1 and Day 60 photos, I was nicely surprised by what I saw. Such a difference! I wallowed in the pride that I felt as I edited the photo so it fit on my comparison banner.
You know what! So man people say this, but I'm going to say it as well. If I could do this, anyone can! If you are looking to be healthier and fit, do it! You'll be greeted with a nice surprise like I have!
Check out my photo below:
Upon that, I took my 60 day photos and after comparing my Day 1 and Day 60 photos, I was nicely surprised by what I saw. Such a difference! I wallowed in the pride that I felt as I edited the photo so it fit on my comparison banner.
You know what! So man people say this, but I'm going to say it as well. If I could do this, anyone can! If you are looking to be healthier and fit, do it! You'll be greeted with a nice surprise like I have!
Check out my photo below:
Monday, April 20, 2009
Health & Fitness - Rock it Out
So I don't know exactly what the day is today in my Power 90 program, but I am going to take my 60 day pictures tomorrow. I can't wait! I'm so excited that I have made it this far and have some how managed to find enough strength and motivation to move forward after all that I have faced, all that I am currently facing, and all that I will continue to face in the future.
One tip that I can offer is to keep your goals written out and visible. Everyday, when I sit down at my desk, I see my long term goals, my monthly goals, and my weekly goals. It motivates me everyday to push forward and not only strive to meet my weekly goals, but to meet my monthly and long term goals as well. I keep reminding myself that everyday is a step closer to my long term goals and that with every failure that I face, I become one failure closer to success!
We cannot expect to be perfect! No one is perfect!
Well, today was exciting knowing that I am closing in on my be 60 and approaching my big 90. I did my Power 90 Sculpt 3-4, Ab Ripper 200, and went for a jog in my neighborhood. I cannot say enough how much I enjoying being outdoors. It is such an amazing feeling to be out doing something healthy and feeling the sun and fresh air. I just love it!
I have decided that this next, and last, phase in my Power 90 program is going to be my shining moment. I'm going to rip it apart and rock it out! Bringing It Everyday!
One tip that I can offer is to keep your goals written out and visible. Everyday, when I sit down at my desk, I see my long term goals, my monthly goals, and my weekly goals. It motivates me everyday to push forward and not only strive to meet my weekly goals, but to meet my monthly and long term goals as well. I keep reminding myself that everyday is a step closer to my long term goals and that with every failure that I face, I become one failure closer to success!
We cannot expect to be perfect! No one is perfect!
Well, today was exciting knowing that I am closing in on my be 60 and approaching my big 90. I did my Power 90 Sculpt 3-4, Ab Ripper 200, and went for a jog in my neighborhood. I cannot say enough how much I enjoying being outdoors. It is such an amazing feeling to be out doing something healthy and feeling the sun and fresh air. I just love it!
I have decided that this next, and last, phase in my Power 90 program is going to be my shining moment. I'm going to rip it apart and rock it out! Bringing It Everyday!
Sunday, April 19, 2009
Health & Fitness - Family
Today was spent at my grandmother's reminiscing on the many pictures and objects that filled my grandparent's house and made it a home that we all loved and enjoyed. Even the smallest thing like a pencil sharpener reminds generations of us of how we have grown and times have changed.
It still feels weird to be closing this door on their lives. To know that one day that house could hold a new family and that we will no longer have our holiday meals and celebrations there.
I know I will always have them in my heart and soul and I will always keep them there as a reminder of where I come from and where I need to go.
Today's health and fitness is family! Spending quality time with your family can be the greatest cure for everyone's woos and worries.
It still feels weird to be closing this door on their lives. To know that one day that house could hold a new family and that we will no longer have our holiday meals and celebrations there.
I know I will always have them in my heart and soul and I will always keep them there as a reminder of where I come from and where I need to go.
Today's health and fitness is family! Spending quality time with your family can be the greatest cure for everyone's woos and worries.
Saturday, April 18, 2009
Health & Fitness - Take it Outside
So today was supposed to be a day spent at my grandmother's house cleaning and removing things. Other matters had to be tended to before we could begin, so I spent my morning at the park playing two rounds of tennis.
Now if you are new to tennis, like me, you can understand the frustration that I held throughout the two matches that I played. My first match was a huge disappointment as I lost 6-0. If you could only feel how badly I wanted to throw that tennis racket on the court! AHHHH! It was so irritating! Now the second match took almost 30 minutes to complete. That is quite long for two amateurs. It was a battle to say the least! I shined at the last and most important time to take the match at 6-4.
We then began around the running track that surrounds the park. At times the incline becomes steep and at other ares it's flat and smooth. I love the challenge that it presents and try to round the park seven times. Unfortunately, we had to leave earlier than I expected and I topped out at four times around the park. Not bad! Definitely still a worthy workout.
The park was definitely the distraction that I needed at this time. I was encouraged to see how my endurance level has changed. I can now run the same length without huffing and puffing throughout the process. That is motivation within itself.
The best part of it all was being outside! Feeling the warmth of the sun and the breeze of fresh air. Nothing can compare to taking your workout outside! 90% of the time, it's FREE!
Now if you are new to tennis, like me, you can understand the frustration that I held throughout the two matches that I played. My first match was a huge disappointment as I lost 6-0. If you could only feel how badly I wanted to throw that tennis racket on the court! AHHHH! It was so irritating! Now the second match took almost 30 minutes to complete. That is quite long for two amateurs. It was a battle to say the least! I shined at the last and most important time to take the match at 6-4.
We then began around the running track that surrounds the park. At times the incline becomes steep and at other ares it's flat and smooth. I love the challenge that it presents and try to round the park seven times. Unfortunately, we had to leave earlier than I expected and I topped out at four times around the park. Not bad! Definitely still a worthy workout.
The park was definitely the distraction that I needed at this time. I was encouraged to see how my endurance level has changed. I can now run the same length without huffing and puffing throughout the process. That is motivation within itself.
The best part of it all was being outside! Feeling the warmth of the sun and the breeze of fresh air. Nothing can compare to taking your workout outside! 90% of the time, it's FREE!
Friday, April 17, 2009
Health & Fitness - Help!
Hey all! So I am in need of some motivational support. I am a week or so away from my 60th day and if you have been following my story, my grandmother passed away this week.
The Problem: I don't have the same level of motivation as I had a week ago.
Be it the passing of my grandmother or maybe I am plateauing out, I don't know what it is...but all I know is that I need something that will help me push forward. Any ideas?
Clarification: It's not that I have given up on the program. That will never happen! It's just that I don't feel that push or energy that I normally do. I don't feel like pushing myself. It's as if I'm just stuck in a rut or something. Anyway, today will be a short entry.
Help!
The Problem: I don't have the same level of motivation as I had a week ago.
Be it the passing of my grandmother or maybe I am plateauing out, I don't know what it is...but all I know is that I need something that will help me push forward. Any ideas?
Clarification: It's not that I have given up on the program. That will never happen! It's just that I don't feel that push or energy that I normally do. I don't feel like pushing myself. It's as if I'm just stuck in a rut or something. Anyway, today will be a short entry.
Help!
Thursday, April 16, 2009
Health & Fitness - Embarking Upon the Unknown
Today is a weird day. So much on my plate, yet I feel compelled to question what my future brings. I am nearing closer and closer to my last month of Power 90 and although this will be my second attempt at this program, my first attempt was phenominal, but I never truly and officially completed the whole program. I cannot wait to make it official this time.
This brings me to my current situation. The unknown! I'm sure many have travelled down this path, but I am about to begin to close up a chapther in my life that I have never experienced. Beginning on Saturday, I, along with my parents and Uncles and Aunties, will be cleaning, dispursing, or throwing away the belongings of my grandparents. My grandmother passed away a few days ago and was the last of the two to survive. How does one approach a situation like this? I really can't figure out my thoughts and feelings about going over there and closing up this chapter that has been a part of my life since the day I was born. What happens next?
Maybe in a week or two or even a month, I'll be able to let you know the answers to those questions, until then, wish me well.
This brings me to my current situation. The unknown! I'm sure many have travelled down this path, but I am about to begin to close up a chapther in my life that I have never experienced. Beginning on Saturday, I, along with my parents and Uncles and Aunties, will be cleaning, dispursing, or throwing away the belongings of my grandparents. My grandmother passed away a few days ago and was the last of the two to survive. How does one approach a situation like this? I really can't figure out my thoughts and feelings about going over there and closing up this chapter that has been a part of my life since the day I was born. What happens next?
Maybe in a week or two or even a month, I'll be able to let you know the answers to those questions, until then, wish me well.
Wednesday, April 15, 2009
Health & Fitness - One Moment at a Time
After yesterday's unexpected and sad news, today pretty much sucked. I'm trying to stay as focused as I possibly can, but it's difficult to feel the same amount of motivation that I had prior to yesterday. I know what I must do. I know I need to stay as focused as I possibly can, but right now I am cutting myself some slack. I still maintain a full schedule, but don't harp down on myself if I don't feel like finishing something. I put it aside, take a break, and return to it when I am ready. So far, it has helped.
As my motivation levels dip lower, I keep telling myself that she (my grandmother who passed away yesterday) is OK, that she would not want me to stop doing what I have come to love, and that the underlying challenge still remains: to live a healthier and fit life. This just all becomes a challenge within a challenge and with everyone's support that I have been receiving throughout the many social networks, I know I'll push through! With that being said, I want to thank each and everyone of you that have sent me your thoughts. I really appreciate, it has helped me tremendously and I am grateful to have people out there that care.
So today, as my day begins to slow down, I would like to dedicate this post to all of you that have taken time out of your lives to wish me well and send your thoughts. All of the ReTweets, the emails, and phone calls have been amazing!
As my motivation levels dip lower, I keep telling myself that she (my grandmother who passed away yesterday) is OK, that she would not want me to stop doing what I have come to love, and that the underlying challenge still remains: to live a healthier and fit life. This just all becomes a challenge within a challenge and with everyone's support that I have been receiving throughout the many social networks, I know I'll push through! With that being said, I want to thank each and everyone of you that have sent me your thoughts. I really appreciate, it has helped me tremendously and I am grateful to have people out there that care.
So today, as my day begins to slow down, I would like to dedicate this post to all of you that have taken time out of your lives to wish me well and send your thoughts. All of the ReTweets, the emails, and phone calls have been amazing!
Tuesday, April 14, 2009
Health & Fitness - Sadness Overcomes Me
Two nights ago, I woke up in a drenched sweat with tears flowing from my eyes. I had just dreamt of my grandparents in the youthful prime. There were enjoying themselves and basking in the opportunities they built for their children and children's children. The dream progressed and they got older. My grandfather passed away and my grandmother was left alone cooking in the kitchen for herself, missing her love. From a distance, I could feel my grandfather say everything was going to be OK, then suddenly I woke up.
My grandfather has been gone for a little more than a year now and yesterday afternoon I got word that my grandmother had to be taken to the hospital. Her breathing was faint and she was weak and frail. This morning, we were told that she would probably not make it another 24 hours by her Doctor.
As difficult as it has been, that dream left me with some comfort knowing that my grandmother was going to finally be with her husband again. What ever you may believe, that dream was, to me, a message from my grandfather letting me know to go and see her before she passes away and a message saying that she was going to be OK.
Upon the resent events of my grandmother, my father has a blockage in his urinary tract that must be addressed. He needs to have surgery and I am going along with my mother to drive them and assist them on Oahu. I can only imagine what my father is going through. The soon lost of his mother upon having to go through a surgery is a lot to deal with.
Now I am getting closer to the last month of my Power 90 program and these next few days and weeks are going to be very difficult for me. I now know why I had struggled through these past few months pushing myself harder everyday to achieve one of the most highly sought after goals, health and fitness. Through everything that I have endured, I know I will be able to continue...to push forward...to use my time with Tony Horton (Power 90/P90X Trainer and Creator) to become healthier and fit enough to endure life's many challenges.Tony's uplifting motivation will help me through these trying times.
...As I was typing my last sentence on this blog, my mother called to let me know that she (my grandmother) had passed. I am so grateful that I got a chance to be with her before she passed away. I love her so much and appreciate everything that she has done for me.
This blog post is dedicated to Irene Veriato. I will always hold you in my heart Nana! - Love Justen
My grandfather has been gone for a little more than a year now and yesterday afternoon I got word that my grandmother had to be taken to the hospital. Her breathing was faint and she was weak and frail. This morning, we were told that she would probably not make it another 24 hours by her Doctor.
As difficult as it has been, that dream left me with some comfort knowing that my grandmother was going to finally be with her husband again. What ever you may believe, that dream was, to me, a message from my grandfather letting me know to go and see her before she passes away and a message saying that she was going to be OK.
Upon the resent events of my grandmother, my father has a blockage in his urinary tract that must be addressed. He needs to have surgery and I am going along with my mother to drive them and assist them on Oahu. I can only imagine what my father is going through. The soon lost of his mother upon having to go through a surgery is a lot to deal with.
Now I am getting closer to the last month of my Power 90 program and these next few days and weeks are going to be very difficult for me. I now know why I had struggled through these past few months pushing myself harder everyday to achieve one of the most highly sought after goals, health and fitness. Through everything that I have endured, I know I will be able to continue...to push forward...to use my time with Tony Horton (Power 90/P90X Trainer and Creator) to become healthier and fit enough to endure life's many challenges.Tony's uplifting motivation will help me through these trying times.
...As I was typing my last sentence on this blog, my mother called to let me know that she (my grandmother) had passed. I am so grateful that I got a chance to be with her before she passed away. I love her so much and appreciate everything that she has done for me.
This blog post is dedicated to Irene Veriato. I will always hold you in my heart Nana! - Love Justen
Monday, April 13, 2009
Health & Fitness - Monday
So after yesterday's debacle, I awoke to find myself actually ready to get my exercises started. Power Sculpt 3-4 was sitting there awaiting my finger to press play! I did and I enjoyed it. I thoroughly enjoy the challenge of Sculpt. I can measure my success immediately with Sculpt. I can push myself further if need be and I can focus on areas that I feel I need help with after the videos.
My key problem areas are my lower abs and my "love handles." After completing Ab Ripper 200, I take my 20 pound weights and do weighted oblique side-bends. This targets my "love handles."
***PLEASE REMEMBER TO ALWAYS CONSULT YOUR PHYSICIAN BEFORE BEGINNING ANY DIET OR EXERCISE PROGRAM***
1. First select a weight that you are comfortable with.
2. In a standing position, with your legs shoulder width apart, place the weight in your left hand and on your side.
3. Bend towards your left side, keeping your back straight (meaning, bend at your waist,) as far as you can.
4. Return to your starting position.
5. Complete your desired repetitions, switch over to the left side and repeat.
Next, I add in an additional round of leg lifts, which target my lower abs.
1. Lay on your back.
2. Place your hands below your buttocks, while creating a <> diamond shape with your thumbs and pointer fingers.
3. Raise your legs up 8 to 12 inches and lower them back down without touching the ground.
4. Repeat until you have reached your desired repetitions
Note: If you have lower back pains, the diamond shape with help support your spine. You may also choose to raise your legs higher instead of utilizing the 8 to 12 inch recommendation above.
My key problem areas are my lower abs and my "love handles." After completing Ab Ripper 200, I take my 20 pound weights and do weighted oblique side-bends. This targets my "love handles."
***PLEASE REMEMBER TO ALWAYS CONSULT YOUR PHYSICIAN BEFORE BEGINNING ANY DIET OR EXERCISE PROGRAM***
1. First select a weight that you are comfortable with.
2. In a standing position, with your legs shoulder width apart, place the weight in your left hand and on your side.
3. Bend towards your left side, keeping your back straight (meaning, bend at your waist,) as far as you can.
4. Return to your starting position.
5. Complete your desired repetitions, switch over to the left side and repeat.
Next, I add in an additional round of leg lifts, which target my lower abs.
1. Lay on your back.
2. Place your hands below your buttocks, while creating a <> diamond shape with your thumbs and pointer fingers.
3. Raise your legs up 8 to 12 inches and lower them back down without touching the ground.
4. Repeat until you have reached your desired repetitions
Note: If you have lower back pains, the diamond shape with help support your spine. You may also choose to raise your legs higher instead of utilizing the 8 to 12 inch recommendation above.
Sunday, April 12, 2009
Health & Fitness - Bound to Happen
Ok, so today was Easter Sunday, for those of you that practice celebrating holidays, and I decided that I deserved to enjoy myself. I had a stressful few days and I really needed to enjoy. Unfortunately, I decided to enjoy myself through eating! Hmmm...don't know why I didn't catch myself, but I only realized my mistake right now as I'm typing these very words out!
Stress + eating = the reason why I got fat!
Talk about a relapse. But, It was bound to happen! Good thing about today is that I realized I can no longer hold that amount of food in my system anymore. I ate a plate of food and could not eat anything else. I was over-stuffed and it was not funny. I normally could eat 3rds 4ths or 5ths. I serving and I was over-stuffed. Someone is watching over me!
I'm glad this happened today! If I didn't cross this bridge, it would have happened sooner or later! I'm glad it happened today and in the manner it did. I now realize how my eating habits have changed and how I really cannot handle eating in the same manner as before.
Gosh, my stomach is so not enjoying the food that I ate. Back to the healthy and nutritional foods tomorrow for me! I'm actually looking forward to it!
Stress + eating = the reason why I got fat!
Talk about a relapse. But, It was bound to happen! Good thing about today is that I realized I can no longer hold that amount of food in my system anymore. I ate a plate of food and could not eat anything else. I was over-stuffed and it was not funny. I normally could eat 3rds 4ths or 5ths. I serving and I was over-stuffed. Someone is watching over me!
I'm glad this happened today! If I didn't cross this bridge, it would have happened sooner or later! I'm glad it happened today and in the manner it did. I now realize how my eating habits have changed and how I really cannot handle eating in the same manner as before.
Gosh, my stomach is so not enjoying the food that I ate. Back to the healthy and nutritional foods tomorrow for me! I'm actually looking forward to it!
Friday, April 10, 2009
Health & Fitness - My Shakeology Experience
I received my Shakeology 2 days ago and tried it out yesterday. I took two sips and it was good. Didn't seem like it was anything special, but still...it was good (I took a video of myself taking my first sip of Shakeology). After I had cleaned up, I sat down to drink the rest of the shake. (I chose to blend it and add in 1/2 a cup of ice cubes) As I sat down and took the next gulp, I actually gagged. Having soo much of the shake in my mouth was overload for my taste buds and it was HORRENDOUS. I struggled through the entire cup of Shakeology, gagging each time I swallowed.
Now, with that being said. I knew I had done something wrong! How could this shake taste so incredibly terrible that I actually gagged. I racked my brain to come up with a solution and finally noticed that I was not paying attention to how much of the Shakeology powder I was actually putting into the blender. I had doubled the recipe without noticing it.
So today, I followed the recipe and low and behold, that was the key. The shake was SO much better. It really is good! I would place it next to some of the best protein shakes that I have tried before like musclemilk (although shakeology is far healthier).
So, lesson learned...pay attention to what I am doing and stop worrying about the damn camera.
Try it for yourself: Shakeology
Now, with that being said. I knew I had done something wrong! How could this shake taste so incredibly terrible that I actually gagged. I racked my brain to come up with a solution and finally noticed that I was not paying attention to how much of the Shakeology powder I was actually putting into the blender. I had doubled the recipe without noticing it.
So today, I followed the recipe and low and behold, that was the key. The shake was SO much better. It really is good! I would place it next to some of the best protein shakes that I have tried before like musclemilk (although shakeology is far healthier).
So, lesson learned...pay attention to what I am doing and stop worrying about the damn camera.
Try it for yourself: Shakeology
Health & Fitness: SLOW
So, I have been getting 4-6 hours of sleep a night, which for me is not good at all! I need to be getting 8 hours or I usually lag the following day. Three days of not enough sleep and today arrives. Wow, I really really really was lagging. I could feel my body just wanting to shut down. NOT GOOD! I know the importance of getting the proper amount of rest, especially when you workout as intensely as I have been. The Power 90 3-4 series is tough though.
So I tried to sleep in an hour, but was awaken by my other half telling me I'm supposed to get up. My other half didn't know that I had made adjustements in my schedule so I could recover from the lack of sleep. Needless to say, I had a difficult time going back to sleep and that didn't help at all.
I arranged my schedule so I could workout after work, instead of first in the morning as usual. This also did not help! Being exhausted from the day, add in the lack of sleep, and you have one big pile of tiredness.
I pushed through my workouts as much as possible, but I could feel my body not wanting to cooperate. By the end, I had gained just enough energy to wake me up, but that did not last very long.
So, I opened up the kit yesterday and drank my shakeology shake....I'll blog that experience in a seperate post. It deserves its own post. The Coach's kit is extremely thorough. The absolute best that I have seen ever. I have been doing Direct Sales/Network Marketing for quite some time and I have been through several business, both established and new. I have never come across a Network Marketing business that was so professionally set up. EVERY single aspect of Beachbody is covered and very well presented. The pamphlets are clean and professional, not an ebook, or an email. 2 Thumbs up Beachbody.
Join Beachbody: Team Beachbody
So I tried to sleep in an hour, but was awaken by my other half telling me I'm supposed to get up. My other half didn't know that I had made adjustements in my schedule so I could recover from the lack of sleep. Needless to say, I had a difficult time going back to sleep and that didn't help at all.
I arranged my schedule so I could workout after work, instead of first in the morning as usual. This also did not help! Being exhausted from the day, add in the lack of sleep, and you have one big pile of tiredness.
I pushed through my workouts as much as possible, but I could feel my body not wanting to cooperate. By the end, I had gained just enough energy to wake me up, but that did not last very long.
So, I opened up the kit yesterday and drank my shakeology shake....I'll blog that experience in a seperate post. It deserves its own post. The Coach's kit is extremely thorough. The absolute best that I have seen ever. I have been doing Direct Sales/Network Marketing for quite some time and I have been through several business, both established and new. I have never come across a Network Marketing business that was so professionally set up. EVERY single aspect of Beachbody is covered and very well presented. The pamphlets are clean and professional, not an ebook, or an email. 2 Thumbs up Beachbody.
Join Beachbody: Team Beachbody
Thursday, April 9, 2009
Health & Fitness - It's Here!
Finally, I got my Beachbody Coach's Kit. I am not going to open it yet. I set aside some time so I can open it up and review the whole kit in its entirety. This is when it all begins! I'm so excited.
This opportunity is truly something special for me. I am so grateful to have come across it. I really do believe that it was faith that brought me to Beachbody's Coaching business. Never before, through all the different companies that I have represented have I been this passionate about the products and company. Beachbody is truly something special. Power 90, P90X, Hip Hop Abs, Turbo Jam, ChaLean Extreme, and many more fitness videos have changed thousands of peoples lives. Their products assist in your nutritional intake help support their videos. What's even better is that they wrap you with so much support and assistance that it almost becomes impossible for you to fail. I LOVE BEACHBODY! Can you tell?
Well, today started early as usual. I start my workouts at 6:15 am and it lasted up until 8 am. I had to make a few adjustments because the weather outside was pretty bleak and I did not want to be in the middle of a downpour a mile away from home. So I opted to stay indoors today and work on the treadmill. It has been a while since I could actually use the treadmill-the belt was loose and would push us forward when we would run or walk on it. Luckily we have a warranty!
Anyway, I also did Power 90 Sweat 3-4 today. I decided to lighten my intensity to be able to make it through the entire video without it becoming overwhelmingly impossible for me to continue. Tuesday was a lesson learned. Boy did that suck! As time progresses, I'll push myself harder. It's only my first week of Sweat 3-4 so I can't expect to be be Superman immediately.
I am going to do a VLOG when I open up my coach's kit today and I'll try and post it sometime tonight or tomorrow. Editing videos can be a (please place a bad word here). I'm just happy that it is finally here!
This opportunity is truly something special for me. I am so grateful to have come across it. I really do believe that it was faith that brought me to Beachbody's Coaching business. Never before, through all the different companies that I have represented have I been this passionate about the products and company. Beachbody is truly something special. Power 90, P90X, Hip Hop Abs, Turbo Jam, ChaLean Extreme, and many more fitness videos have changed thousands of peoples lives. Their products assist in your nutritional intake help support their videos. What's even better is that they wrap you with so much support and assistance that it almost becomes impossible for you to fail. I LOVE BEACHBODY! Can you tell?
Well, today started early as usual. I start my workouts at 6:15 am and it lasted up until 8 am. I had to make a few adjustments because the weather outside was pretty bleak and I did not want to be in the middle of a downpour a mile away from home. So I opted to stay indoors today and work on the treadmill. It has been a while since I could actually use the treadmill-the belt was loose and would push us forward when we would run or walk on it. Luckily we have a warranty!
Anyway, I also did Power 90 Sweat 3-4 today. I decided to lighten my intensity to be able to make it through the entire video without it becoming overwhelmingly impossible for me to continue. Tuesday was a lesson learned. Boy did that suck! As time progresses, I'll push myself harder. It's only my first week of Sweat 3-4 so I can't expect to be be Superman immediately.
I am going to do a VLOG when I open up my coach's kit today and I'll try and post it sometime tonight or tomorrow. Editing videos can be a (please place a bad word here). I'm just happy that it is finally here!
Wednesday, April 8, 2009
It's Finally HERE! My Week 5 Update!
Sorry for the delay! Here is my Week 5 Update! Week 6 will follow soon!
Health & Fitness - Making Room
Well, today's workout went by pretty fast. I did Power 90 3-4 Sculpt and I love the challenge this video has given me. It has been absolutely amazing. I can feel the burn everytime I do those 5 sets or lunges and the 4th round of Sculpt.
Today was a challenge of scheduling. I needed to workout but I did not know what time I could fit my workout in. I had a last minute change of schedule that altered my normal time to workout, which would normally be between 6:30 am and 8:00 am. I needed to take my nephew to school today which doesn't help the cause, but we have to help each other out or we will all fail, so without any reservations, I decided to change my schedule to workout between 6:00 am and 7:30 am.
It worked out well for me. I did my Sculpt and Ab Ripper 200. I also added in some extra exercises to help focus on my chest and "love handles". My chest is non-exsistant and my "love handles" make me look like I got some "lady lumps". It's cool though. I know I'm still progressing through my program and have about a month and a half in the program.
Oh, how could I forget! I am officiall 20 pounds lighter than when I first started the Power 90 program. I was 205 pounds when I first started the program back in February. Now, I am 185 pounds. 20 pounds! I cannot believe how much progress I have made. It's blowing my mind.
So today was a day of celebration! First because I have successfully rescheduled my workout and second because I lost 20 pounds in approximately 45 days! Hooray!
Tuesday, April 7, 2009
Health & Fitness - The Pain and the BURN!
All I can say is "Power 90 Sweat 3-4 KICKED MY @SS today!" What the hee haw? Man oh man, what a workout. I was drenched by the time I completed the workout and I did not make it through the whole thing. I had to stop a few times throughout to catch my breath. This was cardio at its finest.
Although it tore my apart, I'm happy it did! Power 90 Sweat 3-4 becomes a new goal for me. To make it though without stopping. It brings some added motivation that I needed at this point. It was becoming a routine and I could feel my body growing accustomed to the workouts. This change will help me develop even further as I strive to meet my exercise and weight goals for the next month and a half.
After all of that today, bring on the pain and bring on burn!
Although it tore my apart, I'm happy it did! Power 90 Sweat 3-4 becomes a new goal for me. To make it though without stopping. It brings some added motivation that I needed at this point. It was becoming a routine and I could feel my body growing accustomed to the workouts. This change will help me develop even further as I strive to meet my exercise and weight goals for the next month and a half.
After all of that today, bring on the pain and bring on burn!
Monday, April 6, 2009
Health & Fitness - Everyday Challenges
So today is a challenging day being away from home for the majority of the day. I awoke at 4:30 am to catch a 6:25 am flight to Oahu. We are not scheduled to return home until 5:00 pm. Not good! By the time I actually get home, it will probably be 7 pm. Time to work out? Hmmmm, not really. But I'm going to make sure that I find the time when I return home. It can be so challenging with many different appointments and commitments. I don't plan on using this as an excuse to take a day off though. I know how challenging this can be, but I believe that no matter how hard we work, we deserve to take some time to ourselves to care and value ourselves.
I'm giggling here as I type this because it may be a different story when I actually return home exhausted from a day of traveling and waiting and traveling and waiting. I may have to update this blog post with a statement that totally contridicts my above statement. We can have the perfect mindset, but mindset needs action. We can all be genius' with amazing ideas, but they do not amount to anything unless you place action into your ideas.
Until the end of the day...I'm signing off for now!
Update! So I tried to take an earlier flight home today so I could make some time to exercise, but the airlines could not make any changes to our flight. We opted to go to the mall and watch a movie. Movie theaters are such a difficult place for me. The temptations are so overwhelming. The smell of buttered popcorn in the air. The noisy crackling and crunching that people make as they eat their candy and popcorn. I think I was lucky though. I was so tired that all of those distractions did not mean a thing to me.
We go home at about 5 pm and I needed to go to the grocery store to pick up some vegtables and food for the week. By the time we got home, it was nearing 7 pm. I got myself sorted and pressed play. Little did I realize, today was week 7 the start of the second half of Power 90. I bid adew to Power 90 1-2 and began Scuplt 3-4. All I can say is, "wow." That was pretty awesome. There are some minor changes in 3-4, decline push-ups, pushups till faliure, and the lovely 4th round of sculpt (where everything is pretty much till failure). I enjoyed it though. I felt great and was amazed as I looked at myself in the mirror. I have developed what seems to be the start of abs. Haa-lay-lu-yer! Now that is motivation in itself.
I'm giggling here as I type this because it may be a different story when I actually return home exhausted from a day of traveling and waiting and traveling and waiting. I may have to update this blog post with a statement that totally contridicts my above statement. We can have the perfect mindset, but mindset needs action. We can all be genius' with amazing ideas, but they do not amount to anything unless you place action into your ideas.
Until the end of the day...I'm signing off for now!
Update! So I tried to take an earlier flight home today so I could make some time to exercise, but the airlines could not make any changes to our flight. We opted to go to the mall and watch a movie. Movie theaters are such a difficult place for me. The temptations are so overwhelming. The smell of buttered popcorn in the air. The noisy crackling and crunching that people make as they eat their candy and popcorn. I think I was lucky though. I was so tired that all of those distractions did not mean a thing to me.
We go home at about 5 pm and I needed to go to the grocery store to pick up some vegtables and food for the week. By the time we got home, it was nearing 7 pm. I got myself sorted and pressed play. Little did I realize, today was week 7 the start of the second half of Power 90. I bid adew to Power 90 1-2 and began Scuplt 3-4. All I can say is, "wow." That was pretty awesome. There are some minor changes in 3-4, decline push-ups, pushups till faliure, and the lovely 4th round of sculpt (where everything is pretty much till failure). I enjoyed it though. I felt great and was amazed as I looked at myself in the mirror. I have developed what seems to be the start of abs. Haa-lay-lu-yer! Now that is motivation in itself.
Sunday, April 5, 2009
Health & Fitness - Bring It!
So lately, I have been getting a stream of support and motivation from many people that I have met through social networks like Facebook, YouTube, Myspace, Twitter, etc. The majority of people believe that I am near perfect and that this comes easy for me.
Unfortunately, that is far from true. Although I now can say that I actually love working out, I definitely struggle each day to get myself going. At least for 15 minutes, while I tell myself, "OK, it is time to exercise" I fight my mental weaknesses. It is SOOO easy to just take a break for a day or two. But, I force myself whether I'm moaning and groaning throughout the whole routine or jumping for joy after receiving the boost of energy that physical activity brings.
You know, my life is soooo busy that I often find myself missing meals or scrambling to find a decent and affordable healthy meal at a grocery store or fast food establishment. I wish I had the time to prepare meals ahead of time, but I don't. I'm struggling as it is to make time to workout.
You may be asking, "why don't you fall off like many have?" Or, "why does it seem to come easier for you?" Well, I made a decision before I started this program. I decided that this was a way for me to measure my own self worth. To show myself how much I truly valued and appreciated my life! I know I am worth it! I know I deserve it and so do you! You deserve to live a life that breaths fitness and health. Where you no longer need to wake up in the middle of the night because you can't breath. Where you no longer have the high blood pressure, rapid heart rate, or any other ailments that come with an unhealthy lifestyle.
Everyday I tell myself, "I deserve this. I deserve to feel good and to be proud of myself." I wake up grateful everyday that I made it through the rigorous routines that we, Power 90 users, go through. Grateful that I chose to eat a fat free yogurt instead of a bowl of chocolate ice cream.
Celebrate the small accomplishments! Build upon them and before you know it, you will have exceeded your goals. Take each moment as they come, its a battle we face everyday, but most importantly: BRING IT!
Friday, April 3, 2009
Health & Fitness - The Energy Returns
So today started off a bit slow. My energy levels were below normal, my body was aching and a bit sore. I rolled out of bed and made my way through the normal morning ritual. I zombied my way through the stretch and Power 90 Sweat 1-2 began.
Half way through the first set of cardio, I could feel the energy return. My eyes opened up and awoke and my muscles began to crank each movement out like a well oiled engine. Soon, my whole body was enjoying the burn as I trampled through the forty minute routine. I kept telling myself, "I'm enjoying this. I'm enjoying this." The difference was, I actually was enjoying this cardio routine.
At times, my mind drifted to glance at the morning skies, which were littered with patches of dark gray clouds and little white fluffy clouds. Was it going to rain and ruin my morning walk? By the time I had finished my Power 90 Sweat 1-2, I had already decided that I was going to take that walk whether or not the rain came pouring down. I needed to get that extra bit of cardio in or it would have bothered me the entire day.
The walk was calm and quiet. I took my nephew with me and we traveled the 2 mile journey, filling it was bursts of sprints throughout the walk. The huffing and puffing is no longer as heavy as it once was and I can feel my endurance building as I pushed further with each sprint.
Today, the energy returned and I can now feel my mind and body in sync again.
Thursday, April 2, 2009
Health & Fitness - I'm Back!
So the vacation is officially over and I have been met with many a challenges this week. Luckily, I planned around my challenges and altered my week's exercise plans and dietary intake to compensate for the leniency that I have allowed myself this week.
Fortunately, the leniency is over and the hard work continues. I do enjoy the healthier meals and the feeling of exercising and lifting weights. It really does feel refreshing and it fills my aura with such a positive outlook on every single task and/or activity that I do throughout my day.
So today went off with a problem. Today was Power 90 Sculpt 1-2 and, for the most part, it went well. I can feel my strength levels increasing as I worked through the routine. It feels great knowing how my body is building and getting healthier everyday.
Glad to be back!
Wednesday, April 1, 2009
Health & Fitness - Making Exceptions
Today, we flew back home. We had a morning flight and checked out of the hotel at 7:30 am in order to push through traffic and make it to the airport an hour before our flight, which left at 9:25 am. We went up to the Premier Lounge ate some snack mix and drank a glass of juice as we awaited our flight.
When we arrived home, I could feel my stomach aching for a meal. The snack mix did not do me justice. Knowing I had a dinner to attend tonight, I opted to make an exception for today. Eat meals that are high in protein and not worry too much about the carbs and fat content. I know I'll have to work it off in the next few days, but every now and then we all need to take a break for a meal, a day, or a few days. As I have learned over the past 5 weeks, no one is perfect. Even the professionals allow themselves to slip every now and then.
What truly matters is what you do after you have slipped!
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